Today would be my mom's 60th birthday! Whoa. She only lived to be 57 and I've spent some time today wondering how she would have reacted to turning 60. I have little to compare it with. I was only 1 when she turned 30 and 11 when she turned 40 and don't really remember either birthday. She was very sick when she turned 50 and a birthday just wasn't really a priority. Actually, I don't remember her own birthdays ever being a big priority for her, although she always made a big deal out of everyone else's.
Mostly I'm sad because she's not here for me to ask how she feels about turning 60. I've spent a portion of the day looking at old pictures of her and it always makes me feel better to see how much I resemble her. Right after she died, her friend Sandy told me that whenever I miss her, all I have to do is look in the mirror to see her face.
Here we each are at about 18. I actually think I might be 17 here - but close enough.
This is my favorite picture of my mom. As I was looking at it today, I realized that she was probably about the same age that I am now. Maybe a year or two older. So I made Mike take a picture of me to see if we still look alike.
What do you think?
Anyway - if you have time, please take out a moment and light a candle in memory of my mom. It has been two years today that I started my mom's memorial candle "group," where people could go and light a candle in her memory. Since that time there has never been a moment in which there wasn't at least one candle lit by someone who was thinking of her. That's awesome - and it really means a lot to me. So thanks to everyone who takes a moment to do it.
And to my mom. Give Matt a big hug from me. I love and miss you (both) very much - every day, but especially today. Happy 60th birthday.